I have lost touch. I no longer feel like myself. I have finally broken the barrier between reality and how I feel reality should be. I am now living in this world where nothing is happening and I can't move forward becuase of this. I feel like I am in a slump and there is no way of reaching out and finding the preverbial ladder to climb myself out of this hole.
So much has happened to change my life significantly and so dramatically that I am overwhelmed.
I love her more than I have ever loved another female outside of my family. She claims to still love me but it's hard because I haven't moved on in my relationships with females becuase I am so hung up on her but she has. She has moved on and all she can tell me is she waited as long as she could. Obviously she didn't or she would have realized that she would have had to just say the word and we would have been back together again just like we used to be. Now here we are, talking again typing meaningless emotionless phrases over the emotionless internet. I don't understand this feeling. I hurt so bad but I can't seem to find a way to stop this hurt. I love her. Why can't she just see that?
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